Author: OutOfTheHeart

Letting go and letting God

Hey guys ! Has anyone ever experienced trauma ? Depression? Suicidal thoughts? Been betrayed by a friend or family member? Etc the list of trials and tribulations that we face in this life could go on and on. Well if you answered yes to this question, did you know that Jesus too, suffered a lot of trauma?

Jesus gave up his divinity to come to earth as man to save a falling race. I’m sure many of us already know the story already, but bear with me as I replay the details to build up to the moral of this post. He came as a man to show that man can defeat the devil even in a human state. He already knew what was to come but he still did it. He was beaten by the very same people he came to save. Ridiculed. Betrayed with a kiss on the cheek by one of his very close friends. Wanted out and rejected by his own people. They mocked him and made him a crown of thorns that they smashed into his head. Nails in his hands and feet. Betrayed by his people again when they chose a murder over the giver of life.. Hung to suffocate and die while his mother and crowds of others watched? Did I mention he was beaten? The beatings themselves were unwarranted but especially the level. Men driven by hate and jealousy. Thinking they were truly doing the Lords work. All tricks and lies of the father of this world.

Now we just went over the mild overview of Jesus’s sorrows. But even in that small paragraph we see the amount of anguish right? I mean he died from a broken heart at that. That alone speaks to the sadness and hurt he felt right.?.. the agony he felt in Gethsemane where he pleaded with his father to let this cup pass from him but nonetheless less, thy will be done. Blood tears and sweat all while his disciples couldn’t stay awake and pray with him..the spirit was willing but the flesh was weak.

Now let’s talk about our hurts and traumas. Now I know to most these things are very touchy subjects. Things that we feel are things we can’t let go of and have become apart of us and people just have to except that… I too, use to think along those lines. Then, one day the Lord spoke to me while I was in discussion with a very close friend about letting go of trauma in order to have a better quality of life. Now I’m not saying that we should “just get over” rape or molestation or a loved one being murdered or suicide attempts or whatever it is that your trauma was..I know those things are real things. However, can’t we say that the things Jesus went through were real too? He’s our example of how to live life right? So how did he handle his trauma ?

When Jesus rose from the grave three days later after all that anguish; He went back to the same group of disciples who fell asleep in his anguish and was so joyous to see them. He was focused on the future he was going to prepare for us. The many mansions. Joyous that even after all the trials and tribulations, hurt, and sadness he experienced, life still had great things for him. For US. He has been in the most holy place of the sanctuary cleansing the blood from all our sins. Blotting out the transgressions that have been confessed and forgiven. That in itself sounds like a strenuous job right after going through his lifetime of struggles and pain. Do you see where I’m going with this now?. well let’s wrap it up.

Jesus is our example of how to navigate life. All the stressor in between. He is an instruction manual to life.. the Bible being the BASIC. INSTRUCTIONS. BEFORE. LEAVING EARTH a brother once said. Jesus could have chosen to let the traumas he experienced have space in his life forever. What would that look like for us if he did ? Would he say “Father I can’t cleanse the sanctuary today, remember what happened to me on the cross?”… well then what would happen to our sins? Who would atone for them? Catch where I’m going ? I was astonished when the spirit revealed this realization to me. It changed my whole outlook on trauma. So let us close with these last few sentences.

I first wanna pray for anyone who is reading this, I pray for all of your traumas to no longer have place in your future. That you will have the strength that comes from christ to stand tall and let go and let God. Yes traumas are real and serious. The cross was as well. Christ endured the worse to show us how to handle and move forward in our worse. If he would have given up or stayed in the past we possibly would not be able to have that cleansing or second chance we have moment by moment before the investigation judgement comes to an end. Can you imagine that? I don’t even want too. I thank him for suffering the worse for us and then standing back up and overcoming and going to blot out my worse on my behalf because I cannot do it myself. I pray that each and everyone of you will choose to release the hurt, anger, trauma, and pain to the Master and leave it there for good. I pray that you will let him bear the burden of it because it isn’t ours to carry. Choose life abundantly today brothers and sisters ❤. MARANATHA

Superwoman



I made a corner in my room that belongs to God and I. It’s my private area for him and I to talk. I made a curtain that I go under. The purpose of the curtain was to “block” me out from my surroundings. He said when we pray we should go In private into our closets. Thats as close as I could get in my home. Lol but the space works.
I promise there’s a point to this, just bear with me.

So one day my daughter didnt realize the importance of the corner and she was playing with the curtain. My husband said did you go in and come out like superwoman? She laughed. I laughed but also explained the importance of the corner and said, “yes I do come out superwoman”. I didnt think twice about it that day. Well I felt myself being drawn to my corner today and the name superwoman hit me again.

Now I do not mean the superwoman of this world, the fictitious character created by marvel. I thought about how super or empowered even, that I feel once I come out of that corner.

I have a pillow in the corner as well. I designed it and it says “somethings I can’t see until I bow”. When I bow down to God and I lay all my problems or even my praises at his feet; I then see so many things I couldn’t see when I was on my feet. It’s at the foot of his throne that I get my “power”. There I can become “superwoman”. I’ll explain more how this “superowman” is not in the secular sense.

There is an armor that he talks about that we should have. We are to put on the WHOLE armor of God. It’s to be our 1st line of defense in this spiritual battle we fight here in this life.

Put on the WHOLE armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the WHOLE armor of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
Ephesians 6:11‭-‬18 KJV

So as you see the armor has a lot of components with it.

Truth- Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
John 14:6 KJV
So we see this truth is found through Christ.

Righteousness- the keeping of his commandments.
Matthew 5:6 KJV
Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness:
for they shall be filled.
Revelation 22:11 KJV
11 He that is unjust, let him be unjust still: and he which is filthy, let him be filthy still: and he that is righteous, let him be righteous still: and he that is holy, let him be holy still.

Feet shod with the preperation of the gospel of peace-
And the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace of them that make peace.
James 3:18 | KJV
When we walk about this earth, we should be in peace.



Above ALL the shield of faith-
But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets; Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference.
Romans 3:21-22 | KJV
For we walk by faith and not by sight.
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1 KJV

The helmet of salvation- the helmet covers your heart. We call it the mind but its the heart and it’s where all feelings, emotions, beliefs, etc take place. The enemy will try to attack these very things, because without the mind of christ what are we ? So its important to always have that helmet on protecting the mind of christ. Without the helmet the enemy may think it’s open season, because he walks around like a lion seeking whom he MAY devour.

Search me, O God, and know my heart:
try me, and know my thoughts:
And see if there be any wicked way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24 | KJV

Every way of a man is right in his own eyes:
but the Lord pondereth the hearts.
Proverbs 21:2 | KJV

The sword of the spirit which is the word-
My father always quotes an associate and its stuck with me. He said, “B.I.B.L.E
Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth.
Psalm 119:105 KJV
105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

So here have a description of someone who seems indestructible with all they are equipped with. I take up that armor every moment and when I do, I feel like I can accomplish things that this world says I should not be able too. I feel super in christ. Not the fictitious character who can fly in the air and hold boulders etc. I haven’t gotten my wings yet but with this armor brothers and sisters, I, WE, cannot lose. MARANATHA

I am Fearfully and wonderfully made

In the depths of nothing, with a simple breath into what was formed from dust came man. Humanity. Filled with the breath of life from the God of Heaven.

In this form created by the creators hands lies the breath of life. The spirit given from God. Created here to see what we were capable of in this plan he had given.

The transformation process through is like that of a butterfly. Humanity starts off in one form, filled with the potential to be more, because that’s what was already in the plan. From the beginning, the plan was to already be more. It was not something that needed to be tried or altered to make happen. It was apart of the plan all along. So the transformation takes place and the creation can now spread its wings and fly. That was always the vision for humanity.

The vision started to get blurry when humanity started to not trust the process. Trying to fight the fact that a Caterpillar was created to be a butterfly after its transformation. You cant make a lion a bear no matter how much you may try to pick it apart and piece it together how you want. It will always be a lion, or it will always be a bear. There is no in between.

We as humanity seem to seek the in between. We stop looking at what we were already equipped with to fly, and start trying to piece together our own version. Oftentimes, we are looking at others to find our version not realizing we are the prototype. He created 1 of us.

When we stop looking from within to fly we can seemingly get off track. Life starts to swallow us. Pain, heartbreak, selfdoubt, fear, self-sabotage, hatred, anger, selfishness etc.., all things we were never equipped to begin with so where did they come from?

Vision blurred and we become lost, lost to our purpose. The blessing in creation is their is always redemption when asked for. When you get out of you own way and dig deep inside the depths of your heart you will then see all the tools you didnt know that you didnt know that you know that were already inside of you. Ready for you to use to conquer the world. You were holding your own self back from manifesting your greatness and you didnt even know it. There is a reason you were equipped and it was never to lose.

When that transformation has been made and you find your wings that were already yours from before you even knew you were created; make sure you fly high. Soar in your purpose and reach the heights that were already placed on your life before you were formed. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. PERIOD.

System crash, is that you Lord ?

I’m sure some of us are familiar with the cricut machine. For those of us who aren’t, it’s a cutting machine. You design whatever you like in the design space, whether it be for shirts, hats, mugs or etc, and you send it to the cricut to cut whatever material you use and then you apply it to whatever surface material you are using. Well like any other electionical man made device it can malfunction. For those of you who have one and have experienced that you know how frustrating and even devastating that can be when the machine messes up your material during a cut.

Well one day during one of these system malfunctions I went through 3 pieces of pretty vinyl. Hurt my heart. The computer kept stopping in the middle of a cut. I tried everything I could to salvage the design that was halfway cut. I tried to peice it back together by maybe just cutting the other half and placing it back together. I tried doing word by word. I was determined to fix the mess that the machine created for me. I didnt see the messed up vinyl as waste. It cost to much to be waste. I saw it as a valuable piece of material that i was gonna give my all into fixing before just giving up… it was in that moment that God spoke to me.

In that moment, he revealed to me two things . 1, am I that diligent in fixing my spiritual life and things associated with it. 2, my sheer determination to not give up on that paper is the same exact way he feels about us when we are messed up in sin, times infinity. He doesnt look at us as disposable. If he did, he wouldnt have left the 99 to find the 1. That’s another study lesson though.

In him revealing these things to me I had to sit back and reflect ask myself these questions. Do you reflect on you spiritual growth? Do you make spiritual goals like we do worldly goals and keep track of your progress or growth? Do you give your spiritual life your all even when its frustaring and hard? As these questions ran through my mind I had to sit back and think on these things and decide how I was gonna improve in this area of looking at trials in my life.

I could name so many examples of the lengths that God has went through to not have us separated from him and the love and determination he has put into us but for the sake of the length of this post I will just use the biggest of them all that covers all the others. Jesus. John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that those who believe on him may have everlasting life. God does not wish to just dispose of us when we are messed up. No system crash can keep him from us. WHEN we repent, when we admit our sins and ask for forgiveness he is willing and just to forgive us of our sins and help us rebuild. He is all for fresh starts and that’s why he said we all must be born again before we can take part in his kingdom. We must be a circumcised people like they were required back in Abraham’s day. The depth of the spiritual meaning of that circumcision is another blog as well.

God reveals to us in different ways how he is trying to reach us. What he knows we are capable of. In that moment of that system crash I would say I spent almost an hour trying to fix the mess that I didn’t create. Here we are 2000 plus years later and he is still waiting for those of us whom he knows is going to fix our mess, to let him help us fix it so he can come and take us home. That system crash wasn’t just to annoy me. I looked at it as God showing me something about myself and him. I will never look at a system crash the same again. I pray whatever your “system crash” in life may be that you are determined to fix will remind you of how precious you are to him every second of the day. MARANATHA.

Gods glory in our Character

Part 2 to Surface Faith

Gensis 3:7 And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons.

  When we look at this verse we see that it says their eyes were opened. It’s safe to say that before their eyes were not “shut” because they walked around the garden freely and there was no mention of them being physically blind. So it is in this sense that we can see that this eye opening of theirs must have been the lost of their spiritual light when they decided to take part in the fruit that the Lord told them not too.

  Before Adam and Eve chose to eat of the fruit on the tree of the knowledge of good and evil they were clothed in Rays of light which means they were covered in God’s glory. His character. They walked in his ways until that very moment.. It was in that moment that they lost possession of Gods  character. His Glory.


John 1:14 – And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.

  It was for this reason that Jesus was sent to save us. To restore Gods character in this world and to show us we can live without the character of this world. We do not have to sin. We can gain the victory if we look to glorify God in everything we do, say, eat and drink etc. The very thing that God is waiting on before returning, is for the fulfillment of all whom he knows will develop his character, to fulfil his character.  When those have perfected his character he will tell the four Angels to let go of the winds and he is coming back for us.

1 Cor 10:31 Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.



   Now there is another type of covering that we often dont realize. When we are in the world, we do not realize that the things we do do not line up with Gods glory. We are blinded by the world and its “glory”.  Spiritual things are spiritually discerned so if we are not living a spiritual life we wont see spiritual things as we should.

  Let’s take saul for example. When he went around persecuting Christians he truly thought he was doing the right thing. He thought they deserved the punishment etc. Until one day God was able to open his eyes and strip him of his worldly thinking and in that very moment he gained the character of God and walked with him and the world no longer. He was sorry for the things he had did because he then realized they were wrong. He then became a new creature in christ and became Paul.

2 Cor 5: 17  Therefore if any man be in Christ, he IS a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

  Christ says when he comes for us our characters must already be righteous. The only thing he is changing is our bodies. That should show us even more how important it is now to have the glory of God before he comes so we do not remain blinded by the worlds “glory”.

1 Corinthians 15:52 King James Version (KJV)

52 In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.

  So as we see, there are two types of coverings. A spiritual covering and then a covering of the world that will prevent us from being able to discern spiritual things. When the worldly covering is removed it’s like we see a whole new light. The light of christ. His glory that he wants to perfect in our hearts(mind). All we have to do is seek him.  Seek him while he may be found brothers and sisters.
   MARANATHA

Surface faith

Psalms 19:14 – Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.

I know we have all been here at one point and time. We were either raised in the church ,so we went because our parents made us, or we actually did enjoy it, but didn’t know exactly what a relationship with christ was. Our relationship with God cannot be based off our parents, grandparents or whomever took us to church. As we grow older it has to start to become about us and him. We have to make that decision. It’s at this moment in life that we learn that worship is a lifestyle.

I do not have anything against the word religion. I just more so like the word lifestyle in this context. A lifestyle is something you work to maintain. You eat, sleep, and breathe it for some people. Its something you care about so you put the time in. That’s exactly how our relationship with God should be. We should constantly be grooming it and working at it, studying it. All the things that make it priority in our life.

Now that I’ve explained the first steps, I’ll explain surface faith more. For me, personally growing up I loved God. I went to the youth groups, brought all my friends. I prayed before bed and before I ate. Just like most of us do. I would read a little of the bible here and there. I would be the “preacher” out of my group of friends etc. All these things we believe are enough right? I’ve heard, ” I’m a good person.” ” God knows my heart he knows I’m busy but I love him”… etc We say these things and feel that’s the answer but God wants to be priority in our lives and he wants to be closer to us.

Now I am not saying that people who do this are wrong or don’t love God. When that is all you know then that is all God will hold you accountable too. If that is your very best in him and that’s what you have been convicted is enough then that’s your walk with him. No one can know or examine the heart but God.

Colossians 1: 9-10

9 For this cause we also, since the day we heard [it], do not cease to pray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of his will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding;

10 That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being fruitful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God;

However, learning and growing in something isn’t bad either. Upon closer study of the bible I learned that your faith and your walk with God is not just about the surface things. Yes we may not be able to be on our knees all day in communication with God, but we are able to always have an open heart communication with him. He hears the words we don’t say, because he can read our hearts.

When we wake up, what is the first thing on our minds? Do we pray or do we jump out the bed to rush to get ready? Do we have personal or family devotion to start off the day with jesus?.. At one point, all of these things were foreign to me. When I woke up I got ready and prayed at breakfast and kept it moving until the spirit convicted me that how I start my morning is how my day goes. If I’m short tempered or annoyed or just simply living the fast paced rush of society then 9 times out of 10 I’m not gonna be the most christlike in responding to the days ins and outs. We are a microwave generation. We want everything right then and there. We don’t want to take the long journey. We just want what’s on the surface so we can hurry up and move on to something else. That’s the new normal in todays world but he said that if we put morning and evening devotion, open heart communication, and evening noon and morning prayer into our lifestyle then that is what sets the tone for the day. Jesus is your picker upper.

Philippians 4:8 – Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

As the day goes on. Are we being that light he talks about in Matthew?
“Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”
Matthew 5:14-16, KJV

When people see us do they see christ in our face, our greeting, our demeanor, by the clothes we wear, our conversation? When that car cuts you off how do you respond? When your coworker, friend, spouse, complete stranger angers you do you hold your tongue and let Jesus work it out for you? When someome gets your order wrong are you still kind in correction? When your kids are on your last nerve do you calm them in a christlike way? All of these things and more make up this lifestyle we are learning about. Meditating on these things and searching and finding all the answers in his instruction manual(the Bible) Is how we learn the answer to these questions. It’s how we deepen our faith and learn more about what he truly wants his children to be like. How we learn exactly what being Christlike is. It’s a moment by moment surrender as my pop would say. Day by day may be too late. God asks us for a full surrender of self because that is the only way he can abide in us fully. It’s at that moment that your surface faith starts the journey of what a true moment by moment walk with christ is. I’m still on my journey learning every moment. I pray that if the Lord convicts your heart that you will answer his calling to put away surface faith and take a deeper walk with him. Amen. MARANATHA.

Titus 2:7-8 – In all things shewing thyself a pattern of good works: in doctrine shewing uncorruptness, gravity, sincerity,Sound speech, that cannot be condemned; that he that is of the contrary part may be ashamed, having no evil thing to say of you.

Part two on losing our worldly covering and being covered by Gods character in result of a deeper walk with christ will be coming soon…

“I got a good heart. But this mouth..”

So often we hear the phrase ” I got a good heart but this mouth..”. I too for so long used this phrase and truly thought it justified my actions but didn’t take away from the light I was suppose to be in christ. God knows my heart right?, isn’t that what we always tell people when they try to correct us in love or “judge” us as we say. Well, the Lord walked with me and showed me his take on these phrases. Everything was right there in his word all along. Yet, I missed it. Let us not be too late. The time is now. The Lord is at the door.

The two things we are speaking of are the heart and the mouth and/or the tongue. The word tells us in Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?. So here we have an understanding that the creator of man has made it clear that the heart Is wicked and who but him can know it. The next thing in connection to this would be the mouth/tongue and he says in Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof. So in these two verses we already have a glimpse of what God perceives the heart and mouth/tongue should be.

On my journey I found many verses that the Lord impressed upon my heart and brought light too, for me to be able to understand and to be an example of his word. In the next few paragraphs I will share some of those with you and then just leave a list of others that you can look up on your own later.

Luke 6:45 A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth fourth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasures of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil; for of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.

Now for me? That verse in itself was a hard pill to swallow. We all strive to be good in some kind of way but for those who strive to be like Christ we must remember that good and evil cant mix. He also said there is none good but him but that doesn’t mean that we cant be good it simply means if he abides in our hearts then we can be good because he has filled us , but it is nothing we can do or be on our own. The Lord cannot abide in a temple filled with corrupt thoughts, actions or communication. Proverbs 10:11 The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life, but the mouth of the wicked conceals violence. Brothers and sisters our words, our actions, our thoughts spoken and unspoken are a reflection of what’s in the heart. If we want out words, actions and thoughts to reflect the fountain of life that Christ speaks of then we must fully surrender and let him abide in our hearts. Allow him to empty us of self and fill us with his holy spirit. In Christ we are made new creatures and all old things are passed away. I’m on a journey of being filled with him and emptied of self. I wanna be that fountain of life and If you do too I pray you will walk with God and I on this journey and create your own walk with him. We must die daily, to self that is. Down below I will post links to other scriptures that speak on the heart and the tongue that the Lord presented to me. I pray you will search the scriptures for yourself and allow God to move your heart and open your understanding. Maranatha.

Scriptures on the heart

  • Matthew 12:34-35
  • Proverbs 4:23
  • Proverbs 21:2
  • Proverbs 24:12

Those were just some. The following will be a link to help you more. http://Kingjamesbibleonline.org/Bible-Verses-About-Heart/

Scriptures on the tongue

  • Proverbs 15:1
  • Matthew 12:36-37
  • Psalms 141:3
  • James 3:8☆☆☆☆

Http://kingsjamesbibleonline.org/Bible-Verses-About-power-Of-The-Tongue/

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the diving asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.